a farewell letter from Alaska to her boyfriend Jake

My lovely Jake,...

I find it really hard right now to write this letter too you, but I thought that it wouldn't be correct,if you doesn't know my last thoughts of our relationship and some other things.
When you read this letter I will not be here anymore.Now you ask yourself-why?!
Jake,it is really hard -I know, but I hope you will understand it somehow and sometime.
I want to end my life. I doesn't want to live a life like this. Sorry! :(
I know I should tell you personally, but I couldn't. I'm afraid of your reaction, because if I would have told you my project you would have stopped me .I'am really sure!!!

But first at all I want to thank you for your love you gave to me.Our relationship was the best thing I remembered,when I look back.
Thanks therefore:)
I will never forget any of these great moments we had, they were wonderful <3
I enjoyed every second of the time we have spent together.

There are some things I haven't told you yet. I hope you will forgive me.It's about Miles and me...
Miles was not only my friend as you might have thought. There was more between us. Sorry.
Excuse my behavior,please.
At first I just liked him,but after some time I've felt there's more. We talked a lot and he was there ,when I wanted to talk about my problems and was crying.
Do not get me wrong.I did not mean to deceive you. I thought of you/of us all the time,but I could not defend myself in relation to Miles.There was no distance ,there was kind of close between him and me.
The reason for this was that we  have spent a lot of time together and had a lot of fun.
We went smoking,we learned together for our exam and I we drove to Mc Donalds and did some other activities.

But you need to know, that I'd never forget you.You were the only one I really love and thats true.
You were the only boy for me.Please believe me.

Jake,now it's time to say good-bye. Good-bye for ever.
I'm sure- I will miss you. :'(
...but it's too late for more declarations...Sorry!

You will always be in my heart -till forever !!
                    I love you!!!!! :-*


                      A big kiss and a very good-bye...
                             Yours, Alaska <33



And remember :

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P.S : I wrote a nice little poem for you, I hope you like it :)

  >> I miss you when you're far away,

  >>  I think 'bout you evr'y night and day.

  >>  Even if we can't be together,

  >> I will miss you now and forever! :'(

>>by Marleen

farewell letter from Alaska to her friends

To all of my friends:

If you're  reading this ,I'm surely dead. Don't miss me,because this is my will.
I'm full of fault and I think I can't live with that,so I decided to kill myself.
It's not because of you!!! I really  loved evereyone of you. I think the way I will leave the world is the right way to leave the labyrinth.
Now I want to thank you for all.
....

Miles: You know it's silly to think that I really loved you.You were an awesome friend,but I will never think I'm going to brake up with Jake to stay with you.I want to thank you for the good advices and the funny time with you.

Colonel: I loved the time we planned the pranks together.That felt very good. I thank you for your good jokes and your help, when I was in trouble.You're the best guy I've ever met.

Lara: You think this was the best summer of our life and if I look back, I finally think it was. You're a clever girl and I think your future will be great.I love you.

Takumi: I know you misstrust me,because I've ratted out Paul and Marya. I ruined their lifes.I want to say I'm REALLY sorry for that and I hope you will forgive me.So please don't miss me it was a great time and I want to thank you for the best summer of my life :)

   



  I love you all,
                    Alaska

P.S : Miles, I want to give you "the governour in his labyrith" !! ;-)

 >>written by Stefano
>>designed by Marleen